crypt | meme | #001 -- hardest words to say ( and i'd do anything to make you stay )

meme | #001 -- hardest words to say ( and i'd do anything to make you stay )

HARDEST THING TO SAY MEME

Sometimes the hardest things to say are also the most important. It doesn't matter how much it scares you to do so, it's finally time to be honest.

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01. I DON'T LOVE YOU ANYMORE Unfortunately, you can't keep lying to your partner/friend/family anymore. You just don't feel the same for them anymore.
02. I WOULD KILL YOU The person who means so much to you has done something completely unforgivable and now it's time to make sure they know where they stand. You would kill them if you ever got the chance.
03. I LOVE YOU, BUT... A bittersweet love confession. You know you love this person more than anything, but you're not sure you can give them what they need.
04. I DON'T TRUST YOU No matter how you feel about this person, you really can't trust them anymore.
05. SACRIFICE You're going to sacrifice yourself, for the person you're talking with or for the good of all humanity. You want them to know the reasons and that there's no stopping you.
06. TROUBLE You're in trouble and you might not make it through. You need to let at least one person know how you feel before it's too late though.
07. CRIME CONFESSION You did something you weren't proud of and now it's time to admit it.
08. DEMONS We've all got our demons and we've all got our own personal nightmares we have to face, but this time? You can't hold it all back.
09. I'M PREGNANT... Now's not the best time for it maybe or maybe you're just nervous how your partner will react, but they need to hear it.
10. BETRAYAL You've betrayed this person and you have to tell them the truth, no more running from it
11. CHEATED You've been unfaithful and it's time to tell your lover.
12. BROKEN That's it. You've had it. You are entirely broken and tired of everything.
13. AFRAID Something has you deathly afraid and you need to talk about it.
14. HELP ME You need someone to help you, bad. You can't do it alone anymore, you've tried.
15. I'M SORRY You said something or did something horrible and now it's time to ask for forgiveness.
16. YOU WERE A MISTAKE Sorry, but whoever you're talking to was the biggest mistake of your life or maybe it was just something you did together.
17. NOT WHO I SAY I AM You're so far from who they think you are, you need to finally tell the truth.
18. LET'S RUN AWAY You want to just get out, leave everything behind and be with this one person for the rest of your life.
19. ASHAMED Either you're ashamed of something they have done or something you did, either way you need to bring it up.
20. CAN'T REMEMBER The person standing in front of you looks so happy to see you, so relieved, but how do you tell them you can't remember a thing about them?
21. HOW COULD YOU You don't understand how they could treat you like they have, do what they have done when you've done nothing but be good to them.
22. YOUR CHOICE Either choose an option from above, mix and match, or make up your own idea.

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I don't make mistakes very often.

Turning you into a Puella Magi was one of them.

[Kyubey says this out of nowhere, bluntly as usual. He refuses to go into detail just yet - also as usual, and he doesn't look at Mami as he says it.]

At least you had a choice at all, Kyuubey. One you regretted, yes, but still a choice.

[The reply comes smoothly, unnaturally calm. But there's a surprised irritation, carefully controlled and hidden away.]

[Matter-of-factly:]

You had a choice too.

You could have died.

Sorry, but I don't believe that option was really an option at all.

...Mami-san. I have a question... If you did something wrong, do you think... it would be best to confess--?

Mm? Well, Kaname-san, that's a question that seems easy enough but actually requires more detail to answer honestly. [And then gently, her tone filling with concern:] Did something happen?

Ah, I, well, I suppose so. [ um ] I think I broke the law, Mami-san.

[....] Ah....are you sure? That's rather- well, hard to imagine.

I didn't see the 'please don't litter' sign! My ice cream had melted and there was a plastic bag there, so, I... [ madoka.....broke the law..... ]

[BREAKIN' THE LAW, BREAKIN' THE LAW

regards with utter seriousness for five seconds, then she just quietly laughs.]

I think you're worrying too much, Kaname-san.

[She knows it's something she can't avoid forever. That would be hiding, burrowing into another coffin. She's learned by now that isn't the way to live.

The Queen's announcement had spread through the Gardens like wildfire. Finally, they would be allowed the opportunity to return home, and while some time ago this news would have filled Utena with joy, she is conflicted now, has gained connections she never thought she would. She had not thought of the day where she'd have to say goodbye. She had not thought of what she might say at all.

Careless. She'd been careless, had almost resigned herself to staying, and now...now she wasn't sure what she was meant to do. She's spent her time over the past few days primarily to herself, working up her nerve to speak to Mami, but today she finds herself at a familiar apartment building.

A moment later, and she's knocking on Mami's door.]

[Mami has retreated into herself as well, holed up in her apartment with only the silent walls for company. A habit she's tried quite hard to break during her time in the Gardens; she no longer wanted to be a girl that ran away from her problems, unable to do anything but cry all alone.

But this news has hit her with a force that, for all her hard-won growth, is not so surprising - it speaks to her deepest fear, her oldest wound. Mami can think of many of her friends who will jump at this chance to finally return home. She will lose them for good this time, left alone again....and once more be hit with the ugly reality that she can either stay and continue breathing, or instead walk into the abyss of final death. Her world will be the Gardens or she'll have no world at all.

It's a tired face that greets Utena when the door opens, the customary smile small and pained. Mami can guess why the other girl has come, but the knowledge fails to soothe the sharp pang in her chest. ...and yet, unable to push her away, she merely nods and steps aside to allow Utena entrance.]

Hello, Utena-san.

Edited 2011-12-22 09:51 (UTC)

[This is familiar in so many ways, and there is dim comfort in that familiarity, the settling into what is routine and safe. Utena could almost convince herself that this is going to be a normal visit, but to follow that line of thinking would be to regress, and she's done enough of that to last her a lifetime.

She tries to smile, but the expression wavers and eventually falls.] Hi, Mami. [She reaches out to put a hand on Mami's shoulder, an attempt to offer physical comfort.] Um...sorry. I didn't mean to visit so suddenly, but I wanted to talk to you.

[A faint wince, easy to miss; she takes a step back and slips out of reach. With the brittle way Mami feels now, the warm weight of Utena's fingers seems like just a bit too much.]

It's all right. ...would you like to come in? I was about to have tea.

[A lie. Her kitchen is cold. But maybe, if she can at least delay Utena long enough to properly say goodbye....]

[The subtle, physical indication of distance is enough to make Utena's hand fall to her side. She won't be reaching out again for a while.]

I'd like that. [The Duels loom in the back of her mind, the reminder of her promise, but she can spare some time for Mami. She wants to spend time with Mami, and that's the problem.

She follows Mami inside the apartment, and even her customary stretching has stopped for now. Every motion she makes is subdued, diminished.] How...[How have you been? she thinks to ask, but it's a question she knows the answer to already.] How have you been holding up?

[It makes sense that Mami would have heard the announcement - everyone did. And Utena wonders if she's the only one of Mami's friends who will be leaving. She imagines that would be easier, but she doubts it.]

[The silence stretches for an uncomfortable moment. Then Mami's shoulders heave in a small, tired shrug and she gestures to the living room table - an invitation for Utena to take a seat, delivered without meeting her gaze.] About as well as I always do, I suppose.

[Then she turns on her heels and ducks into the kitchen, disappearing from sight.]

[There is no response that Utena can think of, so she obeys the unspoken suggestion to sit down, resting her elbows on the table - one hand propped under her chin and the other slightly lifted, so that she would be able to study her ring under the light.

It was either this or abandoning her promise, she thinks, but the cold knowledge of this and the actual experience is altogether different. Not for the first time, Utena does not know how to fix things.]

As well as you always do, huh... [She murmurs this to herself.]

[When Mami speaks again, her voice rings hollow as it filters out from the kitchen - due to more than just the acoustics of distance and barriers.]

It'll just be a few minutes.

[There's the faint clink of china, the muted creak of a cupboard door, a soft fwoosh of flame as she clicks the stove burner on. Yet for now, Mami doesn't put the kettle on - only stares into the fire. The corners of her eyes begin to burn, as if pained by the light, but Mami knows better. The reason behind this growing urge to cry can't be ignored, shoved under the surface, dressed up in something pretty and allowed to pass for the truth.

Utena is going to leave. It will hurt - already hurts - and there's nothing Mami can do about it.]

Edited 2012-01-14 08:30 (UTC)

[She has nothing to do but wait, and listen, and so she does just that, her eyes boring a hole into the low glass table.

Why had she come, she wonders. Mami is a friend, and it would be dishonest, one part of her immediately says to fill in the void the question made. But there was another reason she'd come here, wasn't there? Something important, something she needs to say before she goes.

Whenever Mami emerges from the kitchen, she'll find Utena holding her hands to her head, her expression confused and pained.]

[She pads quietly out of the kitchen, regarding her guest with a careful blankness that belies a sudden lump in her throat at the pain scrawled across Utena's face. It hides the way her chest constricts, the renewed stab of burning at the corners of her eyes.

Mami sets the tray carefully down on the table in a smooth, practiced movement, hardly making a sound and sitting in the same motion. She's silent, watching Utena, and there's a part of Mami that wants to just curl up and cry when she reaches out to touch the other girl's shoulder in a way meant to comfort. Her voice is soft, gentle, helplessly kind.]

What's wrong, Utena-san?

[Redundant as the question is, Mami can't not ask it. She could no more ignore Utena's unhappiness, in this moment, that she could choose to stop breathing.]

[Without thinking, Utena reaches to cover the hand on her shoulder with her own. It is something she'd been avoiding, this physical contact, but she can't help it.

This is the last time they'll see each other. The thought persists relentlessly; she can't escape it.]

I don't know what to do.

[It's said with a soft, pained reluctance. Her grip tightens on Mami's hand.] It was easy before I got here. Everything was easy. I didn't have to think about things...I would just fight, and win the duels, and I could keep Himemiya safe. I could spend time with Wakaba. But I wasn't happy at all. The only time I was happy there...was with Himemiya.

[She swallows, hard. Her vision swims for a moment, and she stubbornly blinks tears away.] But then I ended up here...and I met you.

[She listens. She feels an unpleasant twinge in her stomach at Anthy's name, but Mami still listens, and she doesn't pull away.]

Yes....you met me. I do hope that I managed to make you at least a little happy, during your stay here.

[And perhaps it's unkind, to say now what she plans to say, but the truth is not always kind. Sometimes it must be ugly for it to be honest. To lie to Utena in their last moments, to pretty up the inevitable reality awaiting them both, would be too insulting and painful for Mami to bear in the days following Utena's departure from the Gardens.]

But you're still going to go back, now that you can.

[Her voice is firm, with no quiet and unspoken pleadings for Utena to stay.

"Your happiness with her is more important than anything I can give you."]

Mami Tomoe | Madoka Magica | no 9

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wow, rude

deal with it!!! also sorry this is so late i can't /sobs

I have no right to judge!!

7 omg

MADOKA WHAT DID YOU DO

i bet she jaywalked

accidentally littered

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3 wow this is going to be awful

weh weh weh also last edit I swear fffs

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eight, how fitting

always