[Without thinking, Utena reaches to cover the hand on her shoulder with her own. It is something she'd been avoiding, this physical contact, but she can't help it.

This is the last time they'll see each other. The thought persists relentlessly; she can't escape it.]

I don't know what to do.

[It's said with a soft, pained reluctance. Her grip tightens on Mami's hand.] It was easy before I got here. Everything was easy. I didn't have to think about things...I would just fight, and win the duels, and I could keep Himemiya safe. I could spend time with Wakaba. But I wasn't happy at all. The only time I was happy there...was with Himemiya.

[She swallows, hard. Her vision swims for a moment, and she stubbornly blinks tears away.] But then I ended up here...and I met you.