His head was still far too full, it felt, when in reality it was just that for the past few months - over a year, really - it simply hadn't been full enough. Now that it was quieter, everything was trying to settle... but he was still confused. "I can't - there's so much." He tried to take a breath, closing his eyes again, feeling like he just couldn't deal with the information his eyes were giving him right now. One thing at a time. Once his heart stopped pounding, once his head was quieter... maybe that would help.

But the first thing he realized, when things started to make sense (or at least tried to), was that he'd ruined everything. When he realized they were in the park, not on some hot jungle-covered island, he realized they'd been on a date, not the front lines... and he'd ruined it. He didn't even know what happened, but he'd ruined something he'd wanted to be special, and the look on her face only confirmed it. "Sorry - sorry, sorry," he tried to tell her, even though she was soothing him, he wanted things to be the other way around. He wanted to be the one to hold her, he'd never wanted her to have to do it, to have to sit there and take care of him and he would have tried to sit up himself but he simply couldn't stop shaking. "I didn't mean - I don't know what happened. I don't know -"